Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I gave up on that race,

I fought that sweetest battle bravely, ended up badly injured, but w a smile cos there were no regrets.


I finally get my hands on a laptop- my sis' hahahaha. Cos I was considering whether to sign up for the graduation ceremony. Yea who wont go for one right? But I was seriously considering and I decided to go cos I just need to get myself occupied, and many friends are going! Oh and imma go help out for the orientation for DENV w the ex- DENVers! CHRISTABEL HENG PLEASE DONT BE LAZY AND GO OKAY COS I'M GOINGGGGGG.

Life's been pretty much the same w a lil twist here and there and lots of sleepless nights, failed suicide attempts (HAHAHAHA!) and everybody chilling at my place, make my place like free public toilet with nice soup and YAKULTS. But its thanks to them, my free time are taken up. HEHEHE. Told you I need to get myself occupied!

Yesterday was shiok, cos we went sunset grill to have their buffalo wings for dinner. One plate of level 5 was enough, but the smart MYJM (marilynyeejiamin) die die want to try level 30. It's the spiciest thing i've ever eaten, cannot even be compared to 10 chilli padi. My head totally went numb and my ears were blocked. Shiok only.
Yea so all of us ended up with swelling lips, toungue and free flow of tears. I swear I drink like min 5 cups of ice water okay. MYJM cannot even finish ONE wing. HHAHA.
Good experience yes, once in a life time is enough tyvm.
Tmr's plan will be JB w MYJM in the noon, then changi village at night. I think I'll skip play on thurs to rest cos my cough seems to be getting worse, and i'm considering about helping out at the white party cos my body clock's pretty screwed.

End of post. Shall feed you'll w lots of photossssss cos i think i should (:



Webcamming at work hehehehehe.









This was at spins, the day which all of us got inspired by the scene which sylvia proposed to bettina to be her gf. SO SWEET OMG the scene's still stucked in my head. I swear i'll marry any one who does that to me hahahahaha, not literally.



xiang and jeff came to visit us at work





PLAYYYYY (:


check out those pretty eyebags \m/




Oh this was after the first day of work at IT fair which i was alr 3/4dead but still went ahead to herstory's party at zouk. I swear I had muscleache for work the next day.

Enough of photos. Any furthur photos will be dated about 2 months back alr so please go facebook for them. Still got D's birthday, chilling at carpark, kite flying and more photos from play :D
The photos are a lil jumbled up cos blogger's being a bitch and i cant move the photos. Should i move to tumblr?


" In the last few days, you made me feel alive.
You made me feel beautiful and intelligent and wanted,
and no matter how hard I try,
I'll never be able to tell you just how much that meant to me."


- fio's lj

Wednesday, March 24, 2010





如果当时没有擦肩而过
也不会懂心可以多痛
感谢你给我一场美好的梦
既然是梦如何追究
跟你爱的人走原谅我不送
年轻是我唯一的错
在列车进站之前红灯在闪烁
闭上眼放开双手


请在我后悔之前离开我
在我还没有崩溃的时候

不愿意再用深情
勒索你的温柔
会有多难过明天再说

请在我后悔之前离开我

去某个幸福快乐的星球
不确定我的笑容
还能够撑多久
如果你慈悲千万别回头

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Beautiful nightmare

My nightmares had came true. The sweetest dream had ended. Thanks, you gave me the best dream I've ever had. I'm waking up from it now even though I dont want to. Its time to move forward and not look back. I'm strong, I can do it. I'll keep the sweetest memories forever and move on. I just have to go through these, and things will be better. Promise me. Be here as my friend, nothing more. I dont want to lose a friend so keep me updated. All the best, hope you find someone that you truely love soon, and this is the last time I'm saying this, ily.


On the lighter note, UT3's result's out. I flunk one, but on overall, all my grades are fine thanks to UT 1 and 2. Now I need to think of my future.

Monday, March 22, 2010



爱你等于拥有一片天空
任何风吹草动都有你存在其中
自然而然的轻松
一路到夏天的尾声
无所谓到过于激动
我们有笑容我们曾心动
不再是无动于衷
无条件为你不顾明天的安稳
为你变坚强相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢问
有一天坏的可能
无条件为你放弃单独的旅程
为你坚强就不怕牺牲
我的灵魂如此沸腾
为我爱的人
喜欢复杂还是习惯单纯
我愿尽力完成你在我心中几分
难以形容的责任
爱一个人付出才会完整
无条件越爱就越深
永远不分啊

Saturday, March 13, 2010

I'm falling

Hi world. I'm working at the Suntec IT fair till sunday. Drop by to find me if you're coming ok! I'm at the starhub booth (:

Anyway, work's draining every part of me- the stupid customers, the long hours, the standing and the talking. Omg my leggggg. Plus i'm sick, and vvv down. I dont know wtf is happening. No idea at all. Please, just tell me.
I wanna pray, that everything would stop slipping away from my fingers like sand- love and family. Both's killing me mentally. Fucking alot. Thanks sxy for listening. Nobody's willing to listen, but I need to talk. I'm bursting. Its killing me but yet i cant do a thing about it. I'm hoping that things would not turn out to be all the negative thoughts thats in me. I think i have free flow of tears hahahaha.

I'm so tired, emotionally and physically. But i'll be fine, i think. I'm strong.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

hello?

I secretly hope you're still here w me.

Laptop deprived- VERY MUCH. I need to send in resume to many places. I need to get my ass into a job to earn kachingzzz. Graduating from RP seriously made me fucking lost and its like a live day by day kinda life without a goal. Self note: need to start thinking. Should I go back to yck to teach???

SO..... life's been pretty much the same. Just that, some how or rather, its a lil diffffffferent. Okay i love to contradict myself (:


100% insecure.

Monday, March 01, 2010

5 days

Enjoy :>



那天我扬起帆
想看看未知的海
心里很多话想说说不出来
虽然我脸上看不出来
天空一样蔚蓝 却换了多少云彩
那时的你让我幸福百分百
是否为我等待
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在


站在你的门外 我却幸福在徘徊
心里很多话想说说不出来
但我想你一定都明白
时间过的好快
想念却不曾更改
现在的你是否幸福百分百
我应该怎么猜
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在

Meant more than something to me

I fucking need to work, and then get moolahs. I want to travel laaaa. And I need a laptop:(

Its gonna be 4am soon and i still cant get to sleep :/ I'm having this wierd gastric/cramp when my mense is alr over. How? I dont feel well.
Anyway i think my blog needs some photos. Next post ok? :D

Oh yea oh shit i missed my NTU date cos i cant fucking submit. Gotta wait till may now. Fml