what is forever?

I had a tiring day today. From school, to bedok, to town, to home. Cui.

Sometimes I wonder, is there such thing call 'love forever'? As time passed in a relationship, there are more things to contribute to keep it going, like commitment, communication, monetary, trust etc etc. This applies for 10 years, 5 years, or even 3 months. It's not just 'love' that simple any more.
It's a wonder how people can give up on a relationship so easily, and probably just regret after that. Sometimes, its just too late to regret. It takes 2 hands to clap- that includes the good and bad things that happened. Are feelings swayed so easily?

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Today school so siannnnn. Many people never come. I am so moody. Dont feel like going for lesson but nobody pon with me. Mat went fishing at labrador park, ryzzal dont want pon, naz comfirm wont pon unless she ownself want to, pt and vivian comfirm wont, jidi ....., fangs never bring her log book so she dont want to leave, still got who???

Home is crazy, seriously. I think I am going crazy too :D

bang bang!

I am a very sensitive, paranoid and insecure person. I hate changes around me because I hate to adapt to new things.


Anyway, I am home early today, like around 5 plus? But I regretted cos all I get is naggings. And I got blamed for stupid reasons. Should have stayed in school to study/lepak instead. Zzz. Not gonna talk about it anymore. Skipped gym because a lot people not going. Sianzxzxzxz.

I havent been blogging for quite some time, mainly because I am lazy to upload all the photos. Got hell lots of them mannn! I still havent update naz's birthday, and vivian's like yesterday lah. Needless to say, I enjoyed myself. Glad to have yesterday's gathering and all turned up :D
Vivian cried twice. HAHA. Okay elaborate more when I upload the pictures. I'm hungry now. My dinner's waiting for me.

BYE.

I'm sorry

Sorry for the emotionally unstable mood today. I dont know what overcome me. Fuck me. I'm sorry.
I'm still all smiles (:

UT tmr. I'm chiong-ing t'night. Please give me luck. Love all.

Everything will be fine.

If only time stops,

I would want to stay in the past, and never get old and lose the people by my sides.

The clique is dispersing. Lunch clique is getting smaller. Soon, I'll be eating alone :(

I want to go back to the past. Where we wouldnt care about anything and everything, and we would do crazy stuffs together. I cant stop people from leaving, but I can try to make them stay a little longer. How long?

I'm becoming 19 next month. Is that considered old already? Should I be more sensible? I had not play enough yet, because I'm always stucked at home, cannot come back later than 12 blah blah. I always love night life because I hate to go home. The home I go back to is filled with crazy people, who always oppose to each other. And I am always disapproved of what I do and who I am. Shouldnt a family live in harmony and accept each other for who they are, not discriminate?

And I have this friend who does not see her body as something that she should protect and care for. Okay maybe in the past, maybe she changed. I dont know. I hope she knows what she is doing, because she seeks my advice but she didnt follow. I can help, provided that she wants to help herself too. If you want to fall, no matter how hard I try you'll still do. Please know what you should do. I can only do this much. Dont come to me crying next time if you really decides to choose this path. Because I'll only give you a hard slap and says you deserve it. I hope this day never come.

To me. Please cheer yourself up, because nobody will bother to. I love you ♥

pinkdot!

yesterday was packed and fun.
went to meet asywaq to buy her pink shirt then down to adel's place cos her dad's gonna fetch us there. Met denise and friends at clark quay, then followed other people to hong lim park cos we dont know how to go there. wah the place like damn crowded can. all pinks. LOL.
saw many familiar faces like MELVIN, took many photos and enjoyed ourselves. overall, the event was not bad (:
me, asywaq, denise, adel and chris left before the whole event ended because denise is heading for vivo and we headed to singapore flyer to see the motor cross thingy. played with the helium in the pink balloons gotten from the event. stayed there for a while before meeting mathan, ryzzal and friends for dinner at marina square.
after that they went on their own ways leaving me, C and A outside MS to chill. talked about religions, races and random stuffs. HAHA. can talk forever please.train home with them after that and mum went mrt to fetch me. damn cui alr.

for more pictures, please go to fb tyvm.

update of asywaq's birthday after i got the photos.

Imma superman

My sister is so mean:(

me: jie lend me your topshop hot pink shirt uh.
sis: okay lor. please dont overstretch it hahahaha:D
me: tsk! i veh skinny k!:(
sis: yar okok. your fingers.

walao eh i sad k hahaha. her shirt is like damn big can see my bra kind. but its funny. LOL. I told my mum and she laughed.
Update on the pinkdot event and today's outing soon. I'm tired now. Goodnight earthlings(:

Impossible is possible

Supposed to gym yesterday, but when we reach gym, it's like totally packed with canoeist and DB-ers. The guys went ahead and me and naz wanted to run at track, but the track got touch rug training i think. Wah nehmind. Then we go to the exercise corner at the hostel area there, but walao there also got DB-ers -.-
So in the end we ran in park and do some intensive exercises. HAHA. So today, my leg is wobbly. Even more effective than gym!

K another mission going on. Hehhh.
Lesson starting. Bai.

I have,

nothing to look forward to. Nothing. Everyday's just like another day.

Maybe

Beep Beep! oh look now there goes my phone

And once again im just hopin it's a text from you..hmm..

It aint right read ya messages twice, thrice

Four times a night its true

Everyday I patiently wait

Feelin like a fool but I do, anyway

Nothing can feel as sweet and as real

As knowing I wasn't waiting in vain..

maybe its true I'm caught up on you

Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too

maybe i'm wrong

It's all in my head

Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

I'm always connected online

Hooked on facebook all the time

Hopin you've Checked my profile

Just can't help wondering why,

You play it cool but,

see I'm hopelessly fallin for you,

Every night on the phone and I flirt with you..

and I know that you like it girl

All jokin aside,

What say you and I Come out and say what we're trying to hide..

maybe its true I'm caught up on you

Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too

maybe im wrong

It's all in my head

Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

Like I really want you,

I think I need you,

Baby I miss you,

I'm thinking of you [x2]

maybe its true I'm caught up on you

Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too

maybe i'm wrong It's all in my head..

Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

Maybe Its True I'm Caught Up On You

Maybe There's A Chance that You're Stuck On Me Too

Maybe I'm Wrong,

It's All In My Head

Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

Maybe it's true..I'm caught up on you

Maybe I am wrong

Baby I miss you...

I have nothing much to blog about. My life is boring other than swine flu affected the world. Ryzzal's birthday's photos are updated on FB. Please direct yourself there.
My mucus is flowing. Bye.

Yes, I have issues.

Yes, the fact is that i dont like mum's gf, and i dont think i need to put up a show and act like i love her, no? To stop myself from giving fuckface, i shun, yes? No awkwardess, no unhappiness.

And you. I like you, but i dont like it when you talk to me like a dawg. You're not happy, dont put it out on me/mum. Your tone sucks. I'm not hiyo. Thanks. And no, i have nothing against you.

Anyway, gym and a little badminton yesterday. Coffee shop for murthubak(?) and the flirty ah neh was there hahaha. Before he leave he still smiled and waved to us hahahaha. Talk cork and played our 'describe game' there. HAHA."All about jidi is sex, porn and sex. LOL.

Bus-ed to tampines after that. Waited for asywaq outside her house while she prepare the clothes for shooting. Cabbed to pasir ris home after that to meet vivian, pt. Ryzzal and jidi joined after that.

Asywaq's clothes were piled mountain high, my sis'double the amount. Shoot shoot and strip. They left at about 11 plus and the clothes were not done yet. Too much to handle. I bathed, and bro came over to fetch me back to punggol home cos dad's down with cold, and idw to sleep with mum's gf.

Today went compass point with dad. See phone, did a little grocery shopping then bus-ed back with daddy. I grow so big never take bus with him before okay cos he always use car to fetch.

Its now 9.10pm and i am waiting for bro to fetch me back to amk, but he wont be home till about 11 plus. And daddy keeps pushing me home, asking me to take cab and stuffs, idk why. I think cos he's gf coming back soon or something cos i heard him talking over the phone with the gf i think. How how how? Should i cab home first or wait for brother?

Zzz. If only tmr got no school. I hope daddy's cheena gf dont come back so fast if not i dont know want to hide where cos i dont want to see her cheebye face. Okay i want to go watch teevee now. Waiting for X factor! :D

HAHAHA

Asyie Washie says:
*magesh say : u noe hui min look lyk some gangster wif dat new hairstyle ...
*HAHAHAHAHA
[[? meow`]] ;perfectly imperfect says:
*WTF HAHAHAHA
Asyie Washie says:
*NOW THIS IS FUNIE
[[? meow`]] ;perfectly imperfect says:
*ASK HIM WANT JOIN MY GANG NOT
*LOLOL