hear those breaking thoughts

1. If I have the choice, I'd want to be born to a healthy family.

2. I feel worthless.

3. I'm fucking broke.

Okay hello people. I've not been updating because I want hiyo's post to be on top and i'm lazy to change the date to make it on top. I know you all haven't been voting. People like bel, fangs all. haha.

How's your christmas loves? I spend my christmas at home w family and we had a burger party. Photos will obviously be uploaded if possible. I think i lost touch to blogging cos i dont know what to blog about, and i have too many things running through my mind right now.

Things like how can i help to save a marriage? what the fuck is he thinking? what the fuck am i thinking? am i supposed to take the initiative? how to use my time wisely? when is the next time i'll be hearing from you? will my efforts be appreciated? why am i doing all these for you?

Ya i know v stupid. But still...

Its new year eve, i dont wanna think so much alr. I'm so so so tired that i dont feel like doing anything but to sleep throughout. I want my 2009 to end happily:(

Theres too much disaster, sadness, quarrels, confusion etc. Goodbye 2009. I hope 2010 comes w lots of joy, laughters and love.

HELLO EVERYBODY. PLEASE HELP TO VOTE FOR HIYO BABY'S PHOTO HERE. YOU CAN VOTE UP TO 3 TIMES PER DAY. VOTE EVERYDAY PLEASE. THANK YOU I LOVE YOU ALL.

shake shake

I'm in an ecstatic mood idk whyyy. I think cos its HOLIDAY:D
And, i just did a lot of shopping and spend a lot of money. So i think i should just stay at home and eat white bread for the rest of the holidays? HAHAHA Lemme show you what I got in total from pre-fyp shopping, post-fyp shopping, and holiday shopping.

Got this at city plaza. I love it but its more of an impulse buy.Bought these yesterday w 2 shirts.

Review for this was good(:

This is for mum by the way. Supposed to be a x'mas present cos i dont know what to get other than this. Ex okay.

Oh and look at these! Arent they adorable?? ^^

Sis bought these reindeers for christmas and hiyo loveeee them, to the point that any dogs walk pass them, she'll growl and show teeth. Bossy dog.

And the christmas tree's up! The theme's gold. (okay the color's more like shit than gold)

That's hiyo in reindeer hairband w the reindeers and the tree(:

Adorable x10
Went grandma's w cousin to put up the x'mas decors too!

NICE RIGHTTTTT.Of course nice, cos its our work hehehehe.

Still can see the shiny shiny thing we put on top of the 'snow'! Damn cute i know.Anyway, went back lab to clear our fyp stuffs on friday w jidi. Damn heartpain, cos all our samples must throw away alr.

This should be the last time i'm stepping into W31B.

Oh well, at least fyp's over :D

Yesterday was goooood man. Why? Cos i get to meet the clique for lunch before the holidays and pass them my love. HAHAHA. Too bad asywaq's not here. Then after school was shopping w huiling and meryl, and more shopping w cousin and nic before meeting gynette and ham to get her hamsters. Damn super cute only. K-session w sis and brotherinlaw after that till 2am. Anyway i realise that a lot of rp-ians like o go amk hub. Cos i met christabel at fish&co there, then anthony at NTUC and genghong outside hub. WALAO.

Alan the army boy's out from tekong! So met him for lunch w gene and serene @ NYNY. This boy man, go in alr come out machiam brain must program. Hais, poor thang. HAHA. Meet up again soon!

This update is long enough to satisfy fangs in the toilet. Bye.

Liars liars pants on fire! So funny to lie w eyes open hahaha. Wowwww. But still, cant be bothered w stupid people who arent worth my time :D

stab myself to death

i cant imagine i got involved w a piece of shit. stop bugging me you annoying asshole. take a mirror and look at yourself. IRRITATING ARGH.
if only i could erase that piece of memory and make it into a nightmare so that you dont exist in my life. i've never liked you. not now, not last time, NEVER. stop forcing me.

A quick post.

It's 2.25am now and i just finished my notes. Sheesh. Thank gawd magesh's studying and discussing w me to keep me awake.
I love midnight studies but it always got me so hungry:(
i'm craving for a kinder bueno now..



Smart people takes 3 hours to study, so if you are not that smart, you must spend double the effort. Thats why i always study until so late cos i can absorb more during night and i am not so smart :/
Okay random. I'm going to sleep off the hunger pangs now. UT tmr! SIAN.
Good night (:

Forgive, forget(:

dont bring other people in to judge me.
i'm looking forward to the next holiday. i am so tired.

and, i fucking cut my eyeball and it bled zzz.

Edited\

Holiday's in a week's time. CANT WAIT.
And, vivian, sorry (again). I still love you. Hope you still love me too (:
Bav, never blame you lor! :D
Everybody, I am fine. Okay, maybe not. UT's tmr and thurs!

th cold summer

Skip this if you dont want to hear me whine.

After today’s incident, I think I am a total failure.

I failed as a friend because I offended one, or maybe more. Why am I so inconsiderate? Why so I screw things up so much? I thought although I couldn’t excel much in life, I could be a great friend. But I was wrong. I don’t deserve all of my friends. I fucking hate myself to the core. No, this post is not to gain sympathy.

Thinking furthermore, I failed even more. I thought a lot on the bus.

I failed as a daughter. My father hopes that I can get into university, but I know I cant. I tried my best, but I just couldn’t. It’s stressing me a lot, but no matter how well I do now, I just cant cover the points I lost last time. I want to make my father proud of me.

I failed as a sister, because I think I always make my sister angry and I don’t know why. I remembered one incident that made me damn sad. My supervisor saw my sister in the store and commented ‘that’s your sister? How come look so different? Why you like that?’ Broken. And my sister seems to not like it when people say we look alike. I want to make her proud of me too. I try to make her happy, listen to her, but that’s all that I can do.

Not only that, I think I failed as a niece, aunty, tenshi’s owner and a human. I have no stand, no rights. I only know how to say sorry and cry in my blanket. I tried to think for people, but who think for me? Who can I talk to? How do I start?

Okay shut up you bitch, and stop crying.

I need to go back to my comfort zone.

FYP's overrrrrrr.

Yea my title says it all :D

Assessment is overrrr. Slept at 230am and woke up at 530am to prepare for the big day. Kiasu much? LOL. Half of the assessors were nice. Half sucks balls. Overall was okay.

Met sis and cousin after that, then brought the dawgs to pet mover's for a swim! So many retrievers there la. Hiyo got raped, details spared. HAHAHA. And then there was this 'snowing' thing going on like some doggie's foam party. Damn nice I swear. If the dogs havent bathe, i confirm pull them to take pictures will the snow lor! Nice rightttt.

Now its just UTs thats bothering me. UT's on this coming wednesday and thursday omg :(

I love to study okay. Hehehe.

And, christmas is cominggggg! Start to stock up on the pressies people! :D

I'm starting to shop online crazily. Sales are killer to my wallet :(

These 2 were on my wishlist too. DAMN CUTEEE.

Shiny Spangle Camera for $37 only!

Okay which kind soul wanna get for me?

I'll give you one big kiss! Or maybe 2? HAHA.

Or maybe a Lx3? I'll marry you!

Okay end off the post w cute lil precious sleeping in my arms. Awwww ♥