hear those breaking thoughts

1. If I have the choice, I'd want to be born to a healthy family.

2. I feel worthless.

3. I'm fucking broke.

Okay hello people. I've not been updating because I want hiyo's post to be on top and i'm lazy to change the date to make it on top. I know you all haven't been voting. People like bel, fangs all. haha.

How's your christmas loves? I spend my christmas at home w family and we had a burger party. Photos will obviously be uploaded if possible. I think i lost touch to blogging cos i dont know what to blog about, and i have too many things running through my mind right now.

Things like how can i help to save a marriage? what the fuck is he thinking? what the fuck am i thinking? am i supposed to take the initiative? how to use my time wisely? when is the next time i'll be hearing from you? will my efforts be appreciated? why am i doing all these for you?

Ya i know v stupid. But still...

Its new year eve, i dont wanna think so much alr. I'm so so so tired that i dont feel like doing anything but to sleep throughout. I want my 2009 to end happily:(

Theres too much disaster, sadness, quarrels, confusion etc. Goodbye 2009. I hope 2010 comes w lots of joy, laughters and love.

HELLO EVERYBODY. PLEASE HELP TO VOTE FOR HIYO BABY'S PHOTO HERE. YOU CAN VOTE UP TO 3 TIMES PER DAY. VOTE EVERYDAY PLEASE. THANK YOU I LOVE YOU ALL.

shake shake

I'm in an ecstatic mood idk whyyy. I think cos its HOLIDAY:D
And, i just did a lot of shopping and spend a lot of money. So i think i should just stay at home and eat white bread for the rest of the holidays? HAHAHA Lemme show you what I got in total from pre-fyp shopping, post-fyp shopping, and holiday shopping.

Got this at city plaza. I love it but its more of an impulse buy.Bought these yesterday w 2 shirts.

Review for this was good(:

This is for mum by the way. Supposed to be a x'mas present cos i dont know what to get other than this. Ex okay.

Oh and look at these! Arent they adorable?? ^^

Sis bought these reindeers for christmas and hiyo loveeee them, to the point that any dogs walk pass them, she'll growl and show teeth. Bossy dog.

And the christmas tree's up! The theme's gold. (okay the color's more like shit than gold)

That's hiyo in reindeer hairband w the reindeers and the tree(:

Adorable x10
Went grandma's w cousin to put up the x'mas decors too!

NICE RIGHTTTTT.Of course nice, cos its our work hehehehe.

Still can see the shiny shiny thing we put on top of the 'snow'! Damn cute i know.Anyway, went back lab to clear our fyp stuffs on friday w jidi. Damn heartpain, cos all our samples must throw away alr.

This should be the last time i'm stepping into W31B.

Oh well, at least fyp's over :D

Yesterday was goooood man. Why? Cos i get to meet the clique for lunch before the holidays and pass them my love. HAHAHA. Too bad asywaq's not here. Then after school was shopping w huiling and meryl, and more shopping w cousin and nic before meeting gynette and ham to get her hamsters. Damn super cute only. K-session w sis and brotherinlaw after that till 2am. Anyway i realise that a lot of rp-ians like o go amk hub. Cos i met christabel at fish&co there, then anthony at NTUC and genghong outside hub. WALAO.

Alan the army boy's out from tekong! So met him for lunch w gene and serene @ NYNY. This boy man, go in alr come out machiam brain must program. Hais, poor thang. HAHA. Meet up again soon!

This update is long enough to satisfy fangs in the toilet. Bye.

Liars liars pants on fire! So funny to lie w eyes open hahaha. Wowwww. But still, cant be bothered w stupid people who arent worth my time :D

stab myself to death

i cant imagine i got involved w a piece of shit. stop bugging me you annoying asshole. take a mirror and look at yourself. IRRITATING ARGH.
if only i could erase that piece of memory and make it into a nightmare so that you dont exist in my life. i've never liked you. not now, not last time, NEVER. stop forcing me.

A quick post.

It's 2.25am now and i just finished my notes. Sheesh. Thank gawd magesh's studying and discussing w me to keep me awake.
I love midnight studies but it always got me so hungry:(
i'm craving for a kinder bueno now..



Smart people takes 3 hours to study, so if you are not that smart, you must spend double the effort. Thats why i always study until so late cos i can absorb more during night and i am not so smart :/
Okay random. I'm going to sleep off the hunger pangs now. UT tmr! SIAN.
Good night (:

Forgive, forget(:

dont bring other people in to judge me.
i'm looking forward to the next holiday. i am so tired.

and, i fucking cut my eyeball and it bled zzz.

Edited\

Holiday's in a week's time. CANT WAIT.
And, vivian, sorry (again). I still love you. Hope you still love me too (:
Bav, never blame you lor! :D
Everybody, I am fine. Okay, maybe not. UT's tmr and thurs!

th cold summer

Skip this if you dont want to hear me whine.

After today’s incident, I think I am a total failure.

I failed as a friend because I offended one, or maybe more. Why am I so inconsiderate? Why so I screw things up so much? I thought although I couldn’t excel much in life, I could be a great friend. But I was wrong. I don’t deserve all of my friends. I fucking hate myself to the core. No, this post is not to gain sympathy.

Thinking furthermore, I failed even more. I thought a lot on the bus.

I failed as a daughter. My father hopes that I can get into university, but I know I cant. I tried my best, but I just couldn’t. It’s stressing me a lot, but no matter how well I do now, I just cant cover the points I lost last time. I want to make my father proud of me.

I failed as a sister, because I think I always make my sister angry and I don’t know why. I remembered one incident that made me damn sad. My supervisor saw my sister in the store and commented ‘that’s your sister? How come look so different? Why you like that?’ Broken. And my sister seems to not like it when people say we look alike. I want to make her proud of me too. I try to make her happy, listen to her, but that’s all that I can do.

Not only that, I think I failed as a niece, aunty, tenshi’s owner and a human. I have no stand, no rights. I only know how to say sorry and cry in my blanket. I tried to think for people, but who think for me? Who can I talk to? How do I start?

Okay shut up you bitch, and stop crying.

I need to go back to my comfort zone.

FYP's overrrrrrr.

Yea my title says it all :D

Assessment is overrrr. Slept at 230am and woke up at 530am to prepare for the big day. Kiasu much? LOL. Half of the assessors were nice. Half sucks balls. Overall was okay.

Met sis and cousin after that, then brought the dawgs to pet mover's for a swim! So many retrievers there la. Hiyo got raped, details spared. HAHAHA. And then there was this 'snowing' thing going on like some doggie's foam party. Damn nice I swear. If the dogs havent bathe, i confirm pull them to take pictures will the snow lor! Nice rightttt.

Now its just UTs thats bothering me. UT's on this coming wednesday and thursday omg :(

I love to study okay. Hehehe.

And, christmas is cominggggg! Start to stock up on the pressies people! :D

I'm starting to shop online crazily. Sales are killer to my wallet :(

These 2 were on my wishlist too. DAMN CUTEEE.

Shiny Spangle Camera for $37 only!

Okay which kind soul wanna get for me?

I'll give you one big kiss! Or maybe 2? HAHA.

Or maybe a Lx3? I'll marry you!

Okay end off the post w cute lil precious sleeping in my arms. Awwww ♥

To Nicole,

Happy 19th. I love you (:

Side note, my tag board's sooooo quiet.

eff-why-pee is my new bestfriend \m/

yaw! EVERYBODEH, POSTER'S SUBMITTED! ^^

chiong for report yesterday till 430am, and woke up at 730am for school. kulzzzzz. i almost wanted to pon, almost. and anyway, i did report till 4am the day before too \m/
report's done now, and poster's next. less than 10 days to presentation and the draft of poster is not even out. the group's not even nervous. kill me please. what should i wear for presentation. hmmm.

meeting up with the team mates to pt's house to do project. mathan and gang's group might be coming over too cos pt's house got nobody. so we're going to do poster together and lepak. shiok ttm :D

looking forward to see all of them tmr.

i'm shag now. i crave for a full body massage :(

my whole body's aching. my arms, neck, shoulder, legs. i'm going to sleep early tonight after my mask! ^^

hello people, i havent update for almost a week, not because i dont want, but i have no time cos everytime i on my laptop i will be doing report and researches. plus, there is nothing interesting for me to update either, oh wells.
actually have, and i alr prepared a long page to rant. but then, i find it no point, and whats the use of writing so much when the person dont give any fuck about other people except for herself, and maybe her friends. waste time only. lie some more lor, next time no bf (:
oh well, cant be bothered that much. i have much better things to do like REPORT. okay back to report.

EDITED/

i saw this on q's blog.

"shut up if you dont appreciate what i'm doing.
cheebye."

hahahahaha totally what i am feeling man.

Ms tan's birthday

Genevieve's birthday on Sat. Long story cut short.

Met yvonne--> heeren to meet the rest--> orchard central for dinner and gene's--> KPO to chill--> gene's voideck w serene for another cake--> home

Had fun and planned many surprises. Hehehe. So tired, so shag, but so fun and so memorable.

Energy management ut today. WALAO not enough time to finish. All calculations, but i know how to doooooooooooooo. Like first time.

Ri ben cun for dinner w daddy today after school. Love. AND,

THIS! DADDY GOT IT FOR ME HEHEHEHEHE. LOVE ONLYYYYYYYYY XOXO. Chio ttm! Now i want the absolut pride edition :D:D:D:D

yaw

Hanged w asywaq, pt, vivian, ryzzal and jidi after school. We were supposed to do report, but we ended up talking and playing hehehe. But it felt constructive, because we finally hanged out together. Totally missed all the times we spent together. Too bad mathan wasnt here :(
Although i was feeling bad deep down, but i think i had the most genuine smile today :D
And ryzzal gave me a kiss awwwwwwww HAHAHAHA.

Lesson today was totally crazy w all the calculations, equations and graph. The graph was -speechless-. HAHA.

Energy Utilization Management lesson + UT tmr. Combo can. I feel like skipping tmr's lesson cos its lab tmr:( But i shall go tmr cos imma good girl(:

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The weather's so cold. I'm gonna sleep after studying, in your comfort tee, knowing that you'll never be mine.

ya okay, fucking loser.

I'm referring to me, and you and you and you.

Fuck you okay. Two timing very fun eh? Not the first, yes. I regretted, I shouldnt even believe you 2 years ago. 2 fucking years okay. I think i'm so stupid. WHA. Buy people longchamp bag some more, rich right? Still got what? Necklace? Wahh still go marina barrage, keppel bay, ECP etc. Romantic right. Of course, drive Audi what. So? Big fuck? No not jealous at all okay. Dont come back to me any more. I dont have long hair like her, skinny legs, fair like ghost, so sexy can see cleavage right. Sorry I dont have. I dont need you. Ya, one sided. Fuck me.

And you. Wha bf back you up very big. Ya BIG. Thanks. Shiok right? Ya must be smirking behind.

And youuuu. Realize i never reply your msg? Cos I find it no point to answer to stupid questions just in case it ends up like the case on top. -point-

Stop giving me any more headaches. I had enough.

I think i'm sucha loser seriously -point middle finger into mirror-

I should take away my tear gland so i wont cry so easily. ARGH.

I hope I'm skinner, or prettier, or richer, or smarter, or.......

So that people will treat me better.

fangs made my day by....

THIS! Sweet until got ants hehehe :D

Isn't it sweet? So cute can. Thanks fangs i love you too ^^

AND

not to forget,

[[Genevieve]]™
i wanted to tag on ur board

[[Genevieve]]™
but they sae tag rate too high

[[Genevieve]]™
then i cannot tag

[[Genevieve]]™
i said..

[[Genevieve]]™
dun emo la.. i love u deep deepxzzzzxxxx

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

At least i know i still have friends who love me, and both love red like me HEHEHEHE.

Love craze

Stayed over at jln kayu last night. Totally had a long day today (and this stops me from thinking negative things :D).

Things i did today:

1. Had Jln kayu's roti prata and mee goreng for breakfast, yum.
2. AMK hub to buy my ingredients for making chocolate truffles and stock up my toner
3. Had dessert at my favourite dessert shop at hub
4. Go back to aunty's house to take crab. She cook crab for me hehehe.
5. Back to jln kayu to eat my crabbies.
6. Safra for swimming w sis, bro in law, cousins and aunty
7. Changi Village for dinner and we bought kites for kite flying next week ^^
8. Homed, and we played badminton outside our house along the road. The last time i touched my racket was like almost a year ago and it feels good to be playing the sport i used to love so much again. I won all hehehehe. But i got super lots of mosquito bites :(
9. Bathed, and now i'm in my comfy mattress (sadly i got no bed for the moment D: ) and quilt using my beloved laptop.

Yar that sums up my day, and I'm missing someone and a group of people(speaking the truth) and at the same time, disappointed at another person. Oh well, if only the person(s) knows. Maybe he'll surprise me now by popping out of the dustbin (hahahaha) like how he surprised me w a text yesterday at 3am that got me happy and angry. Oh well, he'll never know though. Why are the people around me so stupid :( (multiple meaning for this)

midnight heartbreaks

stop playing w my heart, its fragile.

This is more than what I could handle. I'm fucking confuse.

Lose your pride over some one you love, but dont lose some one you love over your pride.

FYP's a bitch. Okay probably it aint that bad if some people dont make it THAT bad and still not doing anything to help. Hais. I'm not going to say much. I dont want to offense anybody so till now, i'm still keeping my fucking mouth shut. Oh well, everybody's annoyed enough so we are all in the same shoe ;) Let's endure this shit through, team mates.

I'm so fucking stressed out by fyp, uts, report and they are all clashed. I've totally got not enough time for everything. And i'm getting annoyed super easily. All i need now is love from friends :(
I'm going to have a mental breakdown soon, and the destress pills are not helping. Oh gawd.


Anyway i was thinking, probably because i am always here, therefore i'm always taken for granted by friends. Probably i should disappear from the scene. Or maybe they didnt even notice my presence at all. :/

For the loves of my life.

*naf sit straight! when all else fails, You remain.
-leo is stupid la!leo is SHINGZ! hahaha

[b][[ ♥ meow`]] [/b] [i] ;perfectly imperfect [/i]
-how come?mine's boomz!

*naf sit straight! when all else fails, You remain.
-i cant go in unless i sign in vpntotally SHINGZ

[b][[ ♥ meow`]] [/b] [i] ;perfectly imperfect [/i]
-awwwyour com is SHINGZ

*naf sit straight! when all else fails, You remain.
-no!

[b][[ ♥ meow`]] [/b] [i] ;perfectly imperfect [/i]
-mine's BOOMZ cos i dont need VPN to go leo:D

*naf sit straight! when all else fails, You remain.
-wadever
-life suxxxxzzxzxzx

[b][[ ♥ meow`]] [/b] [i] ;perfectly imperfect [/i]
-ahahahathis is so funny hahahahaso gonna blog about this

*naf sit straight! when all else fails, You remain.
-tsk
-dont have my permission!dont shingz hor

[b][[ ♥ meow`]] [/b] [i] ;perfectly imperfect [/i]
-SHUT UP
-MY BLOG'S BOOMZ OKAY
-HAHAHA damn funny.

See i still have old faithful friends that still cheers me even though i think i just lost a bunch of friends. okay la not really lost, but still....
I know friends come and go. But i really dont want all of you to walk out of my life for i really love every one of you.


So much fun, laughters and occasions together. Our first lunch together, first birthday celebration, first new year, first christmas, first school trip, first bbq, first time to airport, first time going through UT, ponning class, disturbing people, fret about fyps and PP, fighting over which canteen should we eat at, gaying around, cam-whoring, bitching, lying to faci because we were late for class etc etc. so many things i wont forget.

We used to have many things to talk about that could last us for 3 days 3 nights. So much that seeing all these photos brought tears to my eyes. Dont you all just miss these. Do we have that much things to talk about now?

600th post!

DAMN FUNNY PLEASE. i think i am damn smart.


[[ ♥ meow`]] ;perfectly imperfect says:

*fuck la

*hahaha

*priest haahahahaha

*must be virgin please

GYNETTE ; attached to sianrui <3>

*fuck you lor

*who said so pls

*priest then those married one leh?

*with child one leh?

*still call priest meh?

*pls okay

*lol

[[ ♥ meow`]] ;perfectly imperfect says:

*they are called Father

*HAHAHAHA

GYNETTE ; attached to sianrui <3>

*HAHAHAHAHHA

post-halloween

Hello people! I didnt spend my halloween clubbing out (although i missed SOHO ): ) , instead it was kinda well spent. Had a mini gathering session at home, bbq-ing the rainy night away was shiok ttm, then we set up our mini pool at the front yard and had water fun together w the dawgs ^^ WATER FIGHTS ARE FUN HEHE.

Then yesterday, we went seletar farm to visit the animals. I got bitten by a fucking horse on my ______ FML HAHAHA everybody keep laughing away can. Want to know come ask me i may consider telling you cos its fucking embarrassinggggg. Oh and we saved a rabbit, sort off. Cos the stupid farm owner actually dont want the rabbit alr cos it had like skin problem and the rabbit was roaming around the carpark. We cant bring home too cos we have lots of animals at home alr so we brought it across the drain so that it wont be knocked down by cars and bought carrots for it. I hope it survive :(

Hot stone for dinner @ punggol marina fat ttm can die. Ya just before i left the house i got bitten by my cousin's siao dog and i had like a super ugly scar on my leg now w black blood clot inside and blue black. Bitten by 2 animals in a day, FML much?

UT's starting tmr, back to mugging!

>:O

I dont anticipate nor feel excited when I recieve the msg now. I shall play the fishing game :D

Happy birthday adel gan

Met xy at seng kang t slack, then bused down to ECP for adel's birthday bbq. We totally kaobei all the way till we reach because it is so fucking far omggggcurrychickenpok. Why they dont want to book at pasir ris. The book ECP also book so far in oneeeee.
BBQ-ed, lepak and feed mosquito till 1245am then cab back to jalan kayu w xy.
Bathe, ate med, and KO. Oh yes i didnt mention mum brought to see doctor cos i was havng dizzy spells every since monday. Doctor says that i'm too stress wtf. LOL.

Okay I'll update the photos from yesterday after i got them from FB. I think all sure flooded w xy's face hahahahahahaha! ^^
I'm still so sleepyyyyyyyyyy and i'm falling asleep in class. But the 'A' last week is motivating me hehehehehehehehehehe.

lips lock

I had th sweetest nightmare 2 nights ago and i'm reminiscing.

'Cause you're hot and you're cold

I think being a science student is very dangerous because we have handle with a lot of cancer causing agents like Ethidium Bromide and Dichloromethane. So before you know it, maybe I alr die from cancer. CHOY CHOY CHOY!


My da yi ma came today but it didnt kill the mood of gyming!:D
Fitness First today with gene and peisi. Threadmill for 30min, and start training legs. I think my legs are going to suffer tomorrow. HEHEHEHE. Sauna for a while, and it made all of us red, but damn shiok. Then, they decided to takr photos w just BRA. Fat ttm thank you very much no need to tell me.

Totally cui. Met serene a while then home.

I want to quit being a fool.

On a side note, I kinda miss my long straight hair.